Sorry

I wanted to say sorry for my last entry. When I read it, I took it the wrong way. I reread it and now I see where everyone is coming from. Sorry. 

Trying to keep a decent attitude

Hello All ..I hope everyone is doing ok. I did write in my journal the other night but Aol wouldnt let me post it. UGHH!! Then I started rewriting in and my power went out. So I just kind of gave up until today. I am doing ok I guess. I am still not out of hot water yet but I am still trudging on. I am having some problems with my new neighbors. I guess that is to be expected when two families have to live so close together. We are conected to each other by an addition so we se each other every day. I try to stay out of thier family business but they are always in mine. I need them around though to make it. So I guess I have to take the bad with the good. It is frustrating though to be the one who kind of takes the bad words and keeps thier mouth shut. But I know I have to for my family's sake. My husband and I arent doing well. I am hoping that things will work out for the best. I dont think I want to patch things up. I hope that doesnt sound bad but that is how I feel right now. This has been a horrible four months for me. I have noticed it has been a hard few months for alot of people.

I had a dream this morning that really bothered me. I dreamed that I was in a really bad car accident . I dont know if I made it or not but I know that the woman who was in the car coming towards me didnt make it. I dreamed she called me and said my name three times. Then my friend, Mike, who passed away came to me and gave me a hug and said that everything was going to be ok. He was a wonderful friend to me. When he hugged me I felt overwhelming peace. When I woke up I was shook up and crying. I really miss him. He was such a understanding guy. Part of me thinks that he really visited me in my dreams last night. I know everyone thinks I need a straight jacket. lol... I thought I would share that with everyone. Well I have to go for now but I will TRY to write in my journal more. God Bless you all.

 

Thought I would share this

Somone sent this to me and I thought I would share it. I hope that I get a chance to write more in my journal later. I hope everyone is well.

 

Have you ever been rescued because God gave you foresight?

The wise look ahead to see what is coming, but fools deceive themselves.

Proverbs 14:8 NLT

Victorious foresight

Wouldn't it be great to see into the future? To have the ability to bypass future mistakes? In a way, Christians have this ability. God has given us a precious gift—the gift of sight.

This "sight" is not like the false sight of fortune-tellers or magicians. It is the spiritual ability to see who is in the future, instead of merely what is in the future. So, we no longer blindly grope around in this life as those who are lost. Christ is our future and our hope.

Just as a successful marathon runner knows the location of the finish line before setting goals for the race, we identify Christ as our finish line. This great knowledge allows us to set daily goals for wise living. In the end each day of our lives may be lived victoriously if we remember our final outcome. The Christian's race is already won through Christ's victory on the cross. And when we cross the finish line of life, we will be in Christ's presence.

WISE WAYS  The next time you feel fear or persecution regarding your faith, remember that Christ has already won the victory!

My mood is good but my sody is sick today

Hello All. My attitude seems to be better today but my body hurts. I have a bad cold. It started out as a head cold and then turned into a chest cold. I wish it would go away. I am so ready for spring. I am not a wonter person. I even get depressed during winter especially towards the end. I think because by then I have had enough of it. I want to get outside and plant flowers. I love doing that. The last few years i havent been able to do it. This year I am going to do it. Before I moved up here I had a beautiful garden at my old trailor downstate. I worked so hard on it and it became the talkof the town. I really miss doing that. It helps me feel better about myself. I have decided that I am going to make it through all these financial problems. I am not going to let them defeat me. Somehow I will make it. I hope I still feel like this tomorrow and the next day. I feel string and ready to take on the world. I have to go and pipck my kids up at the bus stop but I wanted to leave a little message first.

I met a wonderful person online last night. I am so glad that we met. We talked for awhile online and i really believe that she has been the reason fro my good attitude. Thank you June for being my friend and alkl teh kind words that you have given me. And Thank you Lucy for making it possible for me and June to meet. Thank you for being my friend as well. Thank you to all my J-lander friends.Thank you for putting up with my sometimes bad attitude about things and setting my straight. lol  My prayers are with everyone.

my uncle passed away as well

My father called me today and told me that my mother didnt want to tell me right away because of how hard she new I would take it. My uncle which was my grandmother's son passed away 5 hours after my grandmother passed away. They told him that my grandmother had passed away and he sat down on his chair and wanted to be left alone. Five hours later he passed away. He died of natural causes but I think he died of a broken heart. My grandmother and him were very close. My uncle was in the first stages of Alzheimer's disease. He was forgetting where he was and certain names for things. He still remembered people though. This is so much for my family to take. My grandmother's sister is in very bad shape and my Aunt is devastated. I cant imagine losing a brother and a mother on the same day. My mother is taking it ok. I know my mom is the one who gets stuff done in the family. They are all Christians and I know that they both are in heaven together in the presence of our Lord.

My grandmother is with our Lord today

My Grandmother went to be with the Lord yesterday. She was visiting her sister in Austin when she had a pulminary embylosim and passed on to the next world. Iw was a shock to all of us because she was in very good health . She was 86 years old. I will miss her very much but I know that she is in heaven with God today. What a wonderful place to be!!!! She had 6 children and 11 grandchildren and more great grandchildren than I can even count. She was able to see all her great grandchildren. She had just made a blanket for my son for Christmas. She was a wonderful grandmother. She had gone through some horrible times while raising her children because my grandfather had left her to rasie 6 children on her own. She had seen two of her children pass on before her. She was a strong woman and a survivor. She always had undieing faith to God and Jesus. I wish that I was as strong as her. This is really hard to take because we had just lost my sister not too long ago she will always be with me in my heart. Please say a prayer for my aunt who is really taking my grandmother's passing really hard. She is a mess and needs all the prayers that she can get. Thanks to you all. I hope all are doing well. All of you are always in my prayers. I thought I would share this e-mail that I had gotten from someone else :

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Who is "the least" in your life?

I assure you, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it for me!

Matthew 25:40 NLT

Loving the Least

I remember a poster on a dorm-room wall during my days in college. The poster was a picture of a homeless man lying in a dirty gutter holding a bottle in a paper bag by his side. The inscription on the bottom was a quote from Mother Teresa. It read, "You love Jesus only as much as the person you love the least."

For all we don't understand about the life of Jesus and the true nature of God, there is one truth that he made completely clear. The Christian faith is about service and humility. It's about helping those who can't help themselves. It's about loving others more than we love ourselves—even the most unlovable among us.

What is the sign of true followers? Is it the amount of knowledge that we have? Is it the money we give to missions? the degrees we've earned? the number of people we've preached to? the hours we've spent worshiping in church? the books we've read or written?

According to Jesus, the sign of the saved is their love for the least.

It is said that when Francis of Assisi left his wealth behind to seek God, he stripped naked and walked out of the city. The first person he encountered on his journey was a leper on the side of the road. He first passed him, then turned back. He embraced the leper in his arms before continuing his journey. A few steps down the road he turned and saw that the leper was gone. Until his dying day, Francis of Assisi was convinced that the leper was Jesus. Even if he was wrong, he was right.

Hello everyone

I am sorry that I have not posted in awhile. I just wanted to get on here and let everyone know I am still trudging on. I am having some physical problems that I think are stress related. I get chest pains and stomach problems. I am trying to get through this in one piece. I have a family moving in here with me in the other trailor where my sister lived. They are going to help me with the bills and the mortgage. In return I am giving them a peace of my property when it is paid off. I have 5 1/2 acres and I dont need all of it. I am hoping this works out. I feel like I am hanging by a think thread. Well I am going to go. I hope that everyone is well. I will try to post more on my journal.