Had some bad side affects

Hello all.. As always I hope that everyone is doing ok.... I woke up at 4 am this morning with horrible side affects from my medicine. The doctor put me on celexa for my fibro because she thinks it is related to my depression. I had a cold feeling all over my body and I felt clammy. I couldnt breath and I felt like I was going to pass out. I was so scared that i was dieing. I felt as if i was going to pass out at anytime. Today I feel better but I feel jittery. I am always shaking. I also feel dizzy from time to time. The doctor said it was normal side affects but I dont really trust her much. I will keep everyone posted on how I am doing. God Bless everyone...

Went to the doctor today

Hello all..I went to the doctor today. I have been in so much pain the last few weeks. It has been so bad I wanted to cry. I have a relaly bad bladder infection. I also have been diagnosed with severe fibromalgyia. I was already dianosed with that but I didnt realize how painful it could be. It is horrible. She is sending me to a pain doctor to get some kind of physical therapy and pain medicine to get this under control without having to dump narcotics at me for the pain. I am hoping that this works out. I hope everyone is doing well. I will try to write more later... God Bless...

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Sorry

I wanted to say sorry for my last entry. When I read it, I took it the wrong way. I reread it and now I see where everyone is coming from. Sorry. 

Trying to keep a decent attitude

Hello All ..I hope everyone is doing ok. I did write in my journal the other night but Aol wouldnt let me post it. UGHH!! Then I started rewriting in and my power went out. So I just kind of gave up until today. I am doing ok I guess. I am still not out of hot water yet but I am still trudging on. I am having some problems with my new neighbors. I guess that is to be expected when two families have to live so close together. We are conected to each other by an addition so we se each other every day. I try to stay out of thier family business but they are always in mine. I need them around though to make it. So I guess I have to take the bad with the good. It is frustrating though to be the one who kind of takes the bad words and keeps thier mouth shut. But I know I have to for my family's sake. My husband and I arent doing well. I am hoping that things will work out for the best. I dont think I want to patch things up. I hope that doesnt sound bad but that is how I feel right now. This has been a horrible four months for me. I have noticed it has been a hard few months for alot of people.

I had a dream this morning that really bothered me. I dreamed that I was in a really bad car accident . I dont know if I made it or not but I know that the woman who was in the car coming towards me didnt make it. I dreamed she called me and said my name three times. Then my friend, Mike, who passed away came to me and gave me a hug and said that everything was going to be ok. He was a wonderful friend to me. When he hugged me I felt overwhelming peace. When I woke up I was shook up and crying. I really miss him. He was such a understanding guy. Part of me thinks that he really visited me in my dreams last night. I know everyone thinks I need a straight jacket. lol... I thought I would share that with everyone. Well I have to go for now but I will TRY to write in my journal more. God Bless you all.

 

Thought I would share this

Somone sent this to me and I thought I would share it. I hope that I get a chance to write more in my journal later. I hope everyone is well.

 

Have you ever been rescued because God gave you foresight?

The wise look ahead to see what is coming, but fools deceive themselves.

Proverbs 14:8 NLT

Victorious foresight

Wouldn't it be great to see into the future? To have the ability to bypass future mistakes? In a way, Christians have this ability. God has given us a precious gift—the gift of sight.

This "sight" is not like the false sight of fortune-tellers or magicians. It is the spiritual ability to see who is in the future, instead of merely what is in the future. So, we no longer blindly grope around in this life as those who are lost. Christ is our future and our hope.

Just as a successful marathon runner knows the location of the finish line before setting goals for the race, we identify Christ as our finish line. This great knowledge allows us to set daily goals for wise living. In the end each day of our lives may be lived victoriously if we remember our final outcome. The Christian's race is already won through Christ's victory on the cross. And when we cross the finish line of life, we will be in Christ's presence.

WISE WAYS  The next time you feel fear or persecution regarding your faith, remember that Christ has already won the victory!

My mood is good but my sody is sick today

Hello All. My attitude seems to be better today but my body hurts. I have a bad cold. It started out as a head cold and then turned into a chest cold. I wish it would go away. I am so ready for spring. I am not a wonter person. I even get depressed during winter especially towards the end. I think because by then I have had enough of it. I want to get outside and plant flowers. I love doing that. The last few years i havent been able to do it. This year I am going to do it. Before I moved up here I had a beautiful garden at my old trailor downstate. I worked so hard on it and it became the talkof the town. I really miss doing that. It helps me feel better about myself. I have decided that I am going to make it through all these financial problems. I am not going to let them defeat me. Somehow I will make it. I hope I still feel like this tomorrow and the next day. I feel string and ready to take on the world. I have to go and pipck my kids up at the bus stop but I wanted to leave a little message first.

I met a wonderful person online last night. I am so glad that we met. We talked for awhile online and i really believe that she has been the reason fro my good attitude. Thank you June for being my friend and alkl teh kind words that you have given me. And Thank you Lucy for making it possible for me and June to meet. Thank you for being my friend as well. Thank you to all my J-lander friends.Thank you for putting up with my sometimes bad attitude about things and setting my straight. lol  My prayers are with everyone.

my uncle passed away as well

My father called me today and told me that my mother didnt want to tell me right away because of how hard she new I would take it. My uncle which was my grandmother's son passed away 5 hours after my grandmother passed away. They told him that my grandmother had passed away and he sat down on his chair and wanted to be left alone. Five hours later he passed away. He died of natural causes but I think he died of a broken heart. My grandmother and him were very close. My uncle was in the first stages of Alzheimer's disease. He was forgetting where he was and certain names for things. He still remembered people though. This is so much for my family to take. My grandmother's sister is in very bad shape and my Aunt is devastated. I cant imagine losing a brother and a mother on the same day. My mother is taking it ok. I know my mom is the one who gets stuff done in the family. They are all Christians and I know that they both are in heaven together in the presence of our Lord.