Hello all. I hope everyone is well and safe. This is the second time that I have tried to do my journal. It keep mesing up and erasing. UGH!!! Well anyways, Things do look a bit better today. Saturday was a rough day because I have to take two of my dogs to the ASPCA because I just couldnt keep up with thier care and feeding with all that is gong on. I still have my two babies for now. I was so hurt but i know it was for the best for them and us. Chris,my brother in law, found a very good job. He says that he is going to stay and help catch up with what Melissa,my sister, has run up in bills for us. We scraped up the money for the electric bill so that crisis is now over for now. I am sending a payment out on friday for our mortgage . I am hoping that she will have patience with us until we get organized to pay her what we owe her. She has to understand that I was in the dark about this and because I had put some of my own money into it and it was not getting paid that I am a victum in all this as well. I am praying that she will just give us the time we need. I may have to eventually leave here but I am trying hard to grant us some time to get ourselves situated. I dont want to see our family seperate. I am hoping when the dust clears that I will be able to go to college and do what I always have wanted to do. I have alwasy wanted to be a nurse and help people. Maybe I am too old at 37 to even concider a career like that but I am really thinking about trying. I want to become self sufficent totally someday so that if I am ever alone I can take care of me and my family. I have to close for now. My daughter is sick from school today and i have to make an appointmnet for her to go to the doctor. Thank you all for your words of encouragement and your prayers. I wil continue to pray fro everyone as well. It seems like this has been a hard time fro everyone. I pray that we all find peace this new year. Love you all.