Monday, November 24, 2008
I know I have not posted in a long while. I have not been mentally well. I have been severely depressed. I have this hopeless feeling. I cant shake it. I didnt want to write n my journal unless I had something upbeat to say. I was so tired of writing nothing but depressing things. I am scheduled to take my GED test tonight. I am so depressed that I had feelings of just not going. What would be the point?? I know that I have to make myself go. Deep inside I know this is the turning point and first step to my new life. I am so tired though. I am so mentally drained. We arent doing so good trying to kep ends meet. We have to heat the house and do our laundry in a laundry matt. My washer just went. When it rains it poors. At the end of december I wont have a car anymore. I need to come up with 315 dollars to get it fixed. I wont be able to do it. It is very hard to keep myself going. I hope I pass this test. I need this upbeat news. Wish me luck!!