Well, I had my disastrous meeting today about the house. They were really nice people but we didn't get anywhere. I am so disappointed. I really had my hopes up for a better meeting. They just would not answer any questions. I should be used to being disapointed. :-( Not much has gone well with my life. But I keep on going. Sometimes I just dont know how.
I had an appointment to meet someone to give my dog away. I know that if I find a suitable house in town, I can't take him with me. I broke down and could not give him away.It was embarrassing. I couldnt breath and I was crying. I ended up having to go throw up in the bathroom. I know that I am pathetic but he is my baby. I have raised him since he was a little guy. I love him so much. I would have to be very comfortable with whoever he goes to. I guess I am weak when it comes to some things.
I guess it is time for me to take a hot bath and contemplate what to do next about things.I am so confused about everything. I think I am trying to deal with too much too soon.