Thursday, October 25, 2007

my sister passed away

 

My sister passed away today. I was with her when she died. I dont know what to say because my emotions are all messed up. I dont even know how to feel . I feel angry at God for taking her, I feel angry at her for not taking better care of herself, I feel lonely and depressed. I feel guilty because I know that she is now in a better place and I want her so bad to come back home. my sister was only 29 years old. I am 37. I was the one who was supposed to go first. My emotions are going in all directions like a roller coaster. She was a very caring person who took everything on herself. She would give the shirt off her back for someone in need especially her family. I will write more later tomorrow. I think I need to rest some for awhile. God Bless.

 

10 comments:

bojgill4375 said...

Oh I am so sorry Christine. That is so sad and I am sure that you have all kinds of emotiions running through your mind. It was so sudden and all. Each one of us just don't know what God's plans are, do we? I could leave this world tomorrow. God is in control of all of us. Please don't put too much stress upon yourself. There is nothing else that could have been done. She had her choices to make and you have to live with them. Please don't make yourself miserable over what has happened. She is really in a better place than we are. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers. We all need to cry and morn for someone that we love, but please remember that you still have children that need you and your love. God has blessed you with them. There are too many good things that God gives us each day to be angry with Him. I don't think your sister could have lived being crippled or not able to get around. God showed mercy for her and took her home to be with Him. She is doing good now. Loving you, Janie

bojgill4375 said...

Hello Christine.... Just wanted to let you know that you are still in my prayers.  God Bless, Janie

manda2177 said...

Oh my goodness Christine!  What on earth?  How did this happen?  Were you at all prepared?  Were you two close?  I will really be praying for you and your family.

Let me know if there is anything I can do.

God Bless-
Amanda

janid731 said...

praying for you!

Janis

buggieboo1 said...

I am sorry to hear of your loss! I said a quick prayer for you of comfort!



         Sharon
http://journals.aol.com/buggieboo1/ImASurvivor/

jhorky said...

Oh, Christine, I am so sorry you could not reach me.  My speakers were not working and everything was really messed up.  Christine, your emotions are going to be messed up for a long while. She is your sister.  Do not feel guilty about wanting her back.  We want our loved ones back no matter what, but we are being selfish when we do.  Be thankful that the good lord came and rescued her.  When you told me her legs were turning black I wondered then if she was going to recover.  Christine you are in a very fragile emotional state any way, so you must take care of you.  Concentrate on your children and husband and how they still need you.  You have a great son.  Be proud of him and concentrate on your kids, and taking care of them and you.  Listen to me Christine. I know you will be ok but it will take time.  My prayers are with you.  Remember I am speaking from experience.  I lost my 3 sisters, 5 brothers, my mom and dad, my son and a husband.  Some were young like your sister.  Take care and I will be here to listen.  Lucille

bojgill4375 said...

Just checking in on you and letting you know that you and your family are still in my prayers. God Bless, Janie

ljat1 said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Christine.  Your mixture of emotions is normal.  May God bless you and your family during this difficult time.  Be sure to take care of yourself.  Linda  

chevyz71gurl74 said...

Hey Christine...
I'm one of Lucy's friends...Just wanted to say I am so sorry for your loss...it's so hard losing those we love and just doesn't seem fair...but we must remember they are in a better place than we are thats for sure... Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers....

Hugs
Terri

jhorky said...

You are still in my thoughts and prayers.  You will remain there.  If I asked insensitive questions on IM I am sorry.