Hello all I wish I could say that things are going better but they arent. I havent been online much because I have been suffering from severe depression and anxiety. My health insurance benefits were dropped and I havent been able to get any help for it. I have spent most of my time in bed. I did go downstate to visit my parents and oldest daughter which ended up horrible. I had panic attack after panic attack. I am having such a hard time breathing.I dont know if this has to do with a physical problem or my anxiety. With no insurance, I am not going to see a doctor for it. I guess I have to leave it in God's hands. I am sorry that I have not commented on everyone's journals. I still wish the best for everyone and think about all of my j-land friends. I miss writing in my journal but I wanted to wait until I had something good to tell everyone. Nothing has looked up so I decided to check in and let everyone know that I am still here and hanging on. I will go into more detail about my trip downstate when I am feeling a little bit better. Not all of it was bad. I am going to go lay down for awhile. I wish everyone well and I will keep everyone in my prayers. God Bless.