I am having such a hard time with my 15 year old son. The topic is "A girl". I want to pull my hair out. He wants to be on the phone with her 24 hours a day. His attitude has changed drastically since he has been talking to her on the Internet. He doesn't even get to see her. She lives too far away but yet he still wants to be on the phone with her or Internet with her all hours of the night. We only have one phone line but he still doesn't get the point that maybe we need to get phone calls too. It is so frustrating!! I used to be able to talk to him about anything. Now i cant even talk to him at all! Every time I try to talk to him, he thinks I am trying to attack him. He told me yesterday that he was going to stop playing football. Football was so good for him. Before he played he was getting into trouble alot. It really changed his life for the better. I don't want to him to stop. He says that it is because it is getting too hard. I think it has to do with this girl. I don't want to see him waste his life over a girl. I made that mistake when I was younger. This is really heart breaking to see this happen to him. If anyone has any advice it is greatly needed. I am at a loss. : (
other than that, I have been doing pretty good emotionally. I have my moments when i break down but all and all I am keeping myself busy enough that I don't think about things all that often. Things have been ok so far. I just pray that I figure things out before I lose everything. I am not going to give up as of yet. I am still hanging in there. I had a job interview the other day. It is for a cashier job. I really hope that I get it. The lady seemed to like me. She looked like someone that I could enjoy working for. She owns the store and she is very is very easy going. She doesn't even make her employees wear uniforms. My husband is working two part time jobs. That gets a bit hectic but it is money after all.
I have been doing alot of reading lately. Most of it has been about religious things. I have found out that I love learning about different religions. Especially Christian history. It is really interesting.
I have been thinking about my sister alot as well. C.O.R.E. sent me a paper wanting a picture of her to honor her because she donated her organs to them. It really makes me feel good that someone out there is using her eyes to see again. She has given someone a second chance to be see. That makes me so proud to have had her as my special friend. She was really wonderful. She would give the shirt off her back for someone if they needed it. I am blessed to have had her in my life. I love her and miss her so much. I was very happy to send them a picture of her. She deserves to be honored.
I hope all my J-land friends are doing well. I have not had a chance to really comment much on journals. I have been running and running. School is going to start soon and i should have alittle more time because the house wont get messed up so fast. I cant beleive summer is almost over already. I feel like it just started. I am not ready for winter. YUCK!! : (
Well everyone I will bid you fairwell. Till next time....