Sunday, August 31, 2008

dont know what to say anymore

I just dont know what to say anymore. I woke up crying again today. I have been crying off and on all day. I have gotten rid of some of my things knowing that I am going to have to leave this house eventually. She keeps calling me up changing what she wants knowing  that we cant do anything about it. We only owe 6,000 left on this house and we cant even keep it. It breaks my heart. We have dumped over 10,000 into repairs alone in the last 5 years we have owned it. When she sold it to us she said that everything in the house worked. When we first moved here we had no water, and some of the electric didn't work in the house. Both trailers were supposed to be functional but they ended up not working. I begged my sister to take her to legal aide. We had already dumped 15,000 of our money combined on a down payment. This property is only worth 14,999. She has gotten over twice of what it is worth. She knew the house was like this when she sold it to us. She didn't care and lied to us. Because the electric was not hooked up , we were unaware of the things not working. What a surprise when we move up here and the water doesn't work!! We had to ;ay someone to come in and put a new pump in and a pressure tank. We also had to have an electrician to come in and fix the wiring. My sister refused to do anything about it. my sister said she would handle it. Melissa ,my sister, never did. I love my sister and miss her terribly. But I am so angry at her as well. It is really hard to be angry with someone who has passed away and who you love with all your heart. How dare that lady sit and make things harder with lies about us not paying. We have paid every month. I was told because of it being owner financed she can make us leave anytime she wants giving us only 30 days. I am getting prepared now. I am packing some things up that mean alot to me and I am calling storage. AS far as a place to live I will have to check into shelters when and if the time comes. I dont know what else to do at this point. It feel uncomfortable living in  this house knowing it could be taken away from me at any time. I feel like I dont have a home. I hope things will get better for my family. I think we have suffered enough and deserve at least a small break.

Last night I prayed and I talked to my grandma. For about a half an hour I felt peace of mind. It felt very good to feel that. I felt as if my grandma was with me. I don't know how long I can take this. I have tried very hard to keep a good attitude but it is failing. Thank you for all your prayers.

Thank you all for your comments and advice. I will definitely take it. Hugs to all!!


luvrte66 said...

Sounds like talking with your Grandma in prayers eases your mind. Maybe take a little time each day to do that, and she'll help you from above.

Love, Beth

lsfp1960 said...

Christine, I would absolutley make an appointment with Legal Aid, taking in all my canceled mortgage checks, reciepts for work you've done, and any documentation that can help with your case. This lady sounds like she has some real mental and/or emotional issues.  I'm sorry this is happening to you & your family. Keep Looking up ^
Linda in Washington

salemslot9 said...

are the 5 1/2 acres of land
included with the house?

fieldpixie272 said...

I'm not sure I understand the situation here.  You have paid your mortgage to this woman, and she says you have not paid?  Do you have receipts?  If you have receipts she cannot forclose on you.  Is this a rent to own situation or a normal mortgage situation?  Is the property the house sits on included in your mortgage or do you pay this woman a separate rental for the land?  this is very confusing so I dont really know what advice to give you.  The only thing I can tell you to do is take all your paperwork to legal aide and see what they tell you.  If you have kept good records, no one can just take your home away.  

Going back in your mind over repairs you have done and saying you "dumped" money into your house and into down payment is an extremely negative thing to say to yourself.  You have not DUMPED any money into your home, you have INVESTED money into your home.  Sweetie you have got to talk to yourself kindly, and stop speaking as though you are about to become homeless.  Even if you DO become homeless do not tell yourself this.  Tell yourself you are between homes.  This tells your mind that you are about to have a home soon.  

I know some may say that having a positive attitude doesnt matter.  Well I am here to tell you its THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS.  Remember that.  

dbdacoba said...

Christine, Legal Aid is a good idea, do it.  They will tell you what you need if you don't have all the paper work.  They can help you.  It may seem like a struggle that is too big for you, but it isn't.  A little help, a little lifting of the burden will be so good for you and your state of mind.  PS, keep talking with your grandmother.  

bojgill4375 said...

I am so sorry Christine. Wish I could do something for you. Will keep you in my prayers, that is the best thing that I can do. Love and hugs, Janie