Boy am I tired!! Today is the first day back for the kids at school. It was an early morning at 6:15. I wanted to turn the alarm back and stay in bed. I took my dogs out and then got the kids ready for school. I looked like a zombie. My 10 year old daughter Emily popped right out of bed so excited about school. This wont last long!! lol Although i hope so. Maybe she will get a good teacher and stay excited about school all year. Hopefully. My 15 year old son Carl is alwasy excited about school. I hope this helps his mood some.
While i was up, I took the time to read some of the journals and comment on some. Please dont think I am ignoring anyone's journal. I just have been so busy and depressed. When I get depressed I just cant keep my mind straight enough to type anything. I was reading alot for awhile and then I just couldnt conscentrate so I have been taking a break from books the last couple of days. I was reading a book a day. my mind was like a sponge. Now it feels as soggy as one lol
I am trying so hard to keep a good attitude but sometimes i just cry. When things go real bad i miss my sister so much. She was everything to me. October will be a hard month for me. She passed away before my eyes on October 25th. I am not looking forward to that day. But I will get through it. Maybe I will do something special in her name. Like go to the park where we used to go alot together and talk. I dont know. This has really hit me hard. I thought I would have felt better by now. I am sure everyone is sick of hearing me talk about it all the time. But she is in my thoughts everyday. I miss her so much.
On a brighter note..Someone is supposed to come and see one of the dogs today to adopt him. They seem like such nice people. They just lost thier dog last month. They raised him from a puppy and he died at the old age of 14 years. They dont want a puppy because they think they are too old to puppy train again. So they are interested in my Titas. He is a great dog and i want him to have a loving home. I thought it would be harder to see them go. It is hard but i know that i cant take care of them like I should. I want them to have better homes. They are like family to me.
The lady who I was supposed to talk to about the job wont be in today. I have to see her tomorrow. This is a bummer because i was up all night nervous last night. I relaly need this job. I keep getting turned down on jobs because they keep hiring teenagers. UGH!! This is a day job so i have a shot at it. I hope so anyways. I am running out of options. It will feel so good to make my own money.
Well I am going to lay down for a bit before i get up and clean. What an exciting day!! lol I hope everyone in J-land has a wonderful monday. God Bless...