Saturday, August 30, 2008

slow day

I woke up crying this morning. I cried off and on all day. I just needed to let things out. I am so scared about everything. I will be ok. I always get that second wind. That is what I am waiting for now.

I found a wonderful home for one of my dogs, Titus. Their dog of 11 years just passed away with cancer. The kids were so excited to see him. Titas got right into the van with them and they were all over him. He looked so happy. Titas looked back at me from inside of the van to say goodbye and that he was ok where he was going. I said good bye and cried all the way home. I have to do this three more times. I have found a home for one of my cats. I have two to go. This has been so hard. They are all like family to me. I pray that Titas will be happy where he is. I loved him so much but know he is better off.

I am saying a prayer for the mortgage holder of the property. From what I gather she is having a very hard time at life. I hope things get better for her. She is in alot of pain from the cancer. I do hope she gets better. I cant hold a grudge against her. If she kicks us out , it will be devastating but we will go into out new life somewhere else. I am going to call legal aide on tuesday to see what can be done. Maybe nothing but I will check it out anyways. She may keep doing this to me and doubel payments just isnt going to work for me. I have bills to pay. This month I cant pay any because of her wanting an late payment that doesnt exist. I have back taxes to pay as well. She is asking way too much but i will take it with a smile i guess.

I just wanted to say a big thank you to Linda from "Linda's world". She has done something very thoughtful and kind for me. She is a very special friend. This award is for you Linda. Thank you for making my day brighter.

I will say a prayer for everyone. I hope everyone has a safe labor day weekend.


domsmom27 said...

Christine, I wish I could say somethng to make everything better for you.  I am not very good at  these things.  but I will remember you at Mass tomorrow. When the priest says "And for all of our special intentions, I always pray to give my Nicholas speech.  But I will add YOU to my Special Intentions. It will be just between us and God and I hope he is listneing.              Marlene

luvrte66 said...

Although I know it was hard, I'm glad you found a good home for Titus.

I'm glad you're calling Legal Aid, and I hope they'll give you some good advice.

Good luck, sweetie!


bojgill4375 said...

Awww bless his heart. I do hope he enjoys his new home. Bet he does. I have never had to give one of my animals away. That would be very hard. I understand why you cried. I have had to put down Sam a big horse, he got colic.  Gus the burro could not walk from being old.  My collie that looked like Lassie when sick.  Cherokee my beautiful 120 pound white German Shepherd. Did I ever cry! She died in my arms, had to put her down. Had to put down a little horse Baby from age... she could not walk. The neighbor shot 2 of my beautiful white german shepherds (chasing rabbits across his field). Made me sick it hurt so much. We have lived here for 26 years so we have had to put down some cats. I get attached to my animals.

I agree your landlord needs prayers. Calling legal aide is a good idea. Wishing you a safe Labor Day and Sunday. Hugs and prayers, Janie

fieldpixie272 said...

Its sad to give away pets.  My husband and I once had to give our dog away because he was a pit bull and we couldnt find a rental because of his breed, though he was gentler than any cat!  It scarred us so bad, we decided we would not have another dog until we owned our own home and no one could tell us what to do.  And thats what we did.  It took ten years, but finally we owned a home and could have a dog again.  In between those years I wanted a dog really bad, but the sadness of giving our dog away never left us and we simply could not have another until we knew it could not be taken away from us.  When we finally got a dog, Teddy, we were so happy!  He was our little poodle.  He died too soon though, in a tragic accident.  The truth is when you open your heart to love a dog, you open yourself to heartache because there is no way they will stay with us our whole lives on this earth.  They are here a short time because they dont have issues to work on, like people do.  Just a short heavenly visit, thats what I think dogs give us.  I will pray for you.

lsfp1960 said...

Thank you so much Christine.  You are a dear lady and I've been praying for you and your family in regards to this house situation. Remember that God loves you all and also that he provides a home for the birds of the air & he'll do the same for you.   Also remember~that there's a light at the end of the tunnel and it is NOT an oncoming freight train.   Keep looking up ^    Linda in Washington state  

pprrrr39 said...

I am so glad that you managed to get a home for your dog and i am sure that he will be very happy there.
Good luck with the other ones
hugs Jayne