Friday, December 5, 2008

At a loss for words

I have been having such a horrible couple days. I have not ben out of bed until 1 sometimes later everyday. In the evenings all I do is lay on the couch. I have been doing alot of crying. I guess my worrying has caught up with me. There isnt much I can do at this time to solve anything going on around me. I just kind of have to try to handle things the best I can. The mortgage holder to our property is giving us so much trouble. We were supposed to have been paid off by June of this year but because of some thinsg my sister has done before her death, we are 8 months behind. She keeps threatening to take the place from me even though I have been paying her every month. I am almost positive that we wil be paid off soon. Apparently she has another buyer for the property and wants to default on my mortgage and sell it right out from under us even though we are so close to paying it off. Of course she wants more money. The worst of it all is that it is a close internet friend who wants to buy pur house from her. It's a very hurtful situation. I have been told to find homes for my pets and find somewhere to go. This hasnt even gottne to court yet. I am not going to ramble about this anymore.
I have been writing more in my notebook journal that I carry around with me alot. I was putting some real uplifting comments and some real interesting thoughts in it but the last coule of days I just cant seem to get my thoughts together.

I found this verse that I thought was uplifting:
"If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done. Keep on sowing your seed, for you never know which will grow—perhaps it all will.""


Linda's World said...

Christine, I think the important thing for you is just get up every morning & face the day head on. Giving thanks every morning for one positive thing. This lady may sense your insecurities and that just gives her fuel to continue to harass you. I continue to pray for you & your family that God will work in a wonderous way for your family. But remember you have to meet Him half way...Linda in Washington stae

Beth said...

I think Linda is right--you just have to keep going.

Hugs, Beth

Anonymous said...

Things will get better, focus on the good and ignore the bad.
That woman is a bully! There must be something you can do to get her off your back. I dont think its legal for her to be badgering you like this.

Christine I have lost some things in my life too. They turned out to be just things that I didnt miss much. Dont allow despair to fill your mind with what if's, just put one foot in front of the other and move forward as fast as you can. That bully woman has been badgering you for months and has she made good on any of her threats? NO. Thats all they are. Threats. She appears to be the type of person who thinks meanness and bullying will somehow make things go her way. Ignore her as much as you can. Until she has a document in her hand saying the house is sold (which I dont think she can do with you on the mortgage right now) but until she has that, she cant do anything.

Well here is one for your notebook:
When life kicks you, let it kick you forward!