Hello All. I pulled this off of someone else's journal but I loved it so much that I decided to put it on mine. I truly mean the statement that it says. Thank you all for being there for me. I value everyone's comments and advice.
I have some good news to say today. (for once) I had gotten a phone call about a job today. It is just a smalll part time job at the grocery store. I have an interview on monday. I am so nervous. I would really love to work again and it would really help to have some extra money into the house. I just pray that I get the job. I think it will do me good emotionally. All I do is sit int the houseand worry and worry. I guess I am too big of a worrier. I am alwasy afraid of things being taken from me. Not nesecarily material things but loved ones. I guess since my sister died , I am so afraid that I will lose someone else that I love. I need to get over this and start to live again. I think this job will really help me to do this.
The county that I live in (Potter County) is really hurting job wise. There really isnt anything here for anyone to do work wise. I really think that we all need help. I was wondering if anyone thinks that a letter to my congressman would make a difference. I would try if I thought it would make a difference. I dopnt want to leave my home but I will have to if my husband cant find a job good enough to support us. My small job isnt going to do it but it would help. He will run out of unemployment in six months and then we are in big trouble. Some people say that I shouldnt worry so far in the future but I am alwasy like that. My mind is always working in the future. I am alwasy trying to prepare myself for the worst. I feel very uneasy that we dont really have any money to use if the car breaks down. I get stressed out when I am not in control of the situation. I am trying realy hard to take it one day at a time. Today I was very depressed and felt like sleeping all day until I have gotten the phone call about the job. I just pray that I get it. I want to stay here where we are. My kids are doing so well here in school. Especially my oldest son who has ADD. He works so hard and struggles to keep his grades up. I am so proud of him. Well I guess I will let everyone go. I really hope everyone is well. I will write agaon soon. I amtrying to get in the habit of at least writing in my journal at least every other day. I am going out to take a walk with my dogs. God Bless everyone.