Sunday, May 4, 2008

Thank you

Thank you for all the comments on my journal.It made me smile to know that there are still alot of caring people in the world.I am very much a loner other  than  my online friends. I keep to myself alot of the time. I really don't know how to talk to people face to face. I actually have panic attacks when I talk to people sometimes. I am not very good in crowds. I did, however, go to the Maple festival here in town yesterday.We took our golden retriever, Billy. He loves people and he is very good company to me. I really enjoyed myself. The kids rode some rides. My daughter rode the spinning ride three times. She had alot of fun. We had food at the festival. I really didn't like the taste of it so I didn't eat very much. I have never been much into festival food. We all went yard saleing afterwards. I do love yard saleing. I think every woman does. lol.... We then went to the park and let the kids have time to play. Billy (our dog) went swimming in the river. He had a wonderful time. Billy is a great dog. I was so tired when we got home yesterday that I fell fast asleep on the couch. My husband left me sleep there because I have been having such a hard time falling asleep at night that he said it was nice to see me sleep so peacefully.It was really nice to get away from our new neighbors.

Today I spent the day walking the dogs. We had alot of cleaning to do but my husband said that he would do it and I could walk the dogs for the day. He can be very caring sometimes. And sometimes he can be very non understanding. We are trying to work things out but I don't know yet what the future will bring. We are still struggling on money wise. I know that part of it is my fault for not going to college and getting myself a degree in something. I have always wanted to be a nurse but just never went to college. I know I should motivate myself and go as soon as we get stable money wise here. I hope tomorrow is also a good day but two days in a row that are good was alot to ask for as it is. Tomorrow is shopping day. My wonderful neighbors have already bugged for a ride and I said no because I don't really have the gas for it. They never offer gas money and gas is not cheap(as we all know). I was proud of myself for saying no but at the same time I feel guilty. I always want to help people. I have made myself stressed out by helping them. They probably wouldn't do the same for me. I rally miss my sister. We would always help each other out when we each needed help. We stuck together and we made it through everything. Now that she is gone, part of me is mad at her for leaving me the other part of me is glad that she is in a better place. How could I even ask her to come back? She is in  heaven with our Lord. What better place for her to be???!! I feel guilty for wanting her back. Well I hope everyone is doing ok. Thanks again for all the comments. Thank u for making me editor's pick!! I was actually so excited about that. : ) Bye for now everyone


peytonswater said...

At the price of gas, you made a wise decision :)

csandhollow said...

The price of gas is hard on everyone.
I am so glad you had a good day. I am a loner also. It gets me down sometimes that I am. Here in journals you will find many nice people and a few buttheads. Ignore the butts and you will do good. \When we lose someone it is hard to not want them back. I know.
Money is a big problem for us also. If you still want to be a nurse check into it. You have to take core classes long before you take the actual nursing classes. maybe you can start with a class or 2. Financial aid could help with grants. Just try it out.  Grants you do not repay, loans you do. the loans are set up that you repay after you get out of school. that is what I did. I was in my 30's when I went back to school.

pamal3 said...

You are doing just fine taking one day at a time. Tell the neighbour's to sling their hook and stop sponging of you!. You are struggling enough as It Is so don't feel guilty. Things will get better. Love Pam xx

jckfrstross said...

praying for you:)


csandhollow said...

LOL The festival food I like is funnel cakes. The rest is crap. BUT that depends on what kind of festival it is. The Cornbread festival has some great food!