Hanging in there

 

Things have been about the same around here except I have kept my attitude pretty optimistic lately. I have been doing spring cleaning the last couple of days even though it is fall. I have been going through my things because of moving into the smaller trailor next door. We have a heating source now. I just have to get it hooked up. I have a woodstove which is good for living out in the woods like I do. All I need is the piping to put it into the wall. We are putting it in the addition between the two trailors because it is safer than having it in the trailor. It is a very big wood stove so it should heat the trailor nice. I have been trying to get the kids to give up some of thier toys that they dont play with. They are everywhere. They drag them out and let them sit. I really wish they would cooperate with me when it comes to that.

I went to the doctor yesterday because of my breathing. He sent me to get an EKG and some xrays. He also had me scheduled today for a few blood tests. I hated them because i had to go 16 hours without eating. That was horroble for me. I have bad heart burn and not eating something very small every once and a while makes it worse. I have an appointment next week to go over the results. Then if everything is ok , he will go on to the next thing it could be or if he find something wrong we can get it under control. He thinks it is just stress which I agree totally. But I want to be sure.

The last couple of days I have been doing workbooks to get ready for my GED. I have been going over math applications. I just need to be refreshed with some of the things like percentages and algebra and fractions. Once I star doing them . I remmebr what I am doing. I am going to take the fist half of the pre GED test on friday. The lady there thinks that I will do great. She thinks that I will be ready to take the GED test right away without having to do classes. I hope so. I feel like I have waited enough. After that I take my next step. I am hoping to go to college at least an online one but I am taking one thing at a time. I am not very good at taking things in steps. I always want to get everything done at one time. lol That is probably where some of my stress is coming in.

Things about the house have not changed. The lady who is owner financing to us is really trying to mess us over. Apparently she can get away with it right now because I am behind on taxes. This means I have broken contract. I guess I have to play it by her rules for now. But her time will come. I only owe less than 5,000 and she is saying more like 10,000. I just want to cry. I want to get this paid for and on with my life. I am tired of worrying all the time. I dont know how much i can take of it. She is just waiting for me to mess up so she can sell this from underneath me. I dont trust her at all. She is very bitter and mean. I wish my sister would have just kept up with  things like she said she was. I was giving my sister money and she wasnt paying the payments. Well it is water under the bridge now. Nothing I can do about it now. I just have to trust in the Lord to see me through. It does make me very unsettling to not know what is going on though. I would rather be going through a bank right now.

The kids are doing well. I havent had time to spend with them lately because of studying so this evening we are going to the park for an hour to play. I am really looking forward to spending time with them.

My oldest son and I still havent patched things up. We just dont talk anymore. I dont like that very much. I wish me and him could be like we used to be. I have tried everything but he always get mad when i try to talk to him or spend time with him. All he cares about is his girlfriend right now. She is a very nice girl but I feel she has come between us. I hope to work this out soon.

I hope everything is going well for everyone. I havent had a chance to really read everyone's journals. I will take the time soon. Everyone is in my prayers.

 

 

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