My children..God's special gift to me

Countdown: 9 days until I take my GED test

I have always thought my children were the most special people in the world to me. But lately I have been appreciating them more and more. I realize that they are the most precious things in my life. They brighten even the darkest day.

My oldest daughter, Tiffany 19, doesnt call home as much as I would want her to. I really miss talking to her but she has her own life now. I am glad that she is keeping on track and getting her life started the right way. (unlike her mother)

My oldest son, Carl(CJ)16, is a Godsend sometimes when it comes to the younger two. Sometimes he helps me and other times he is just too bullheaded. Most of the time, when I have had just about enough of the little ones for the day, he will step in and help keep them in line. I think he will always look out after them even though he says they get on his nerves. lol

My youngest angel , Emily 10, can be a blessing and a handful. She likes to talk and talk and talk. But when i feel down ,she is the first to try to cheer me up. She is always concerned about everyone in the family. As a matter of fact, she can be a bit obsessive on having to know where everyone is. That tends to drive me insane sometimes. She has Ad/HD and can be a handful.

My youngest son, Daniel, is more like me than any of the other ones. He looks alot like me and he acts like me. He has my stubborness and my temper as well. Everything has to be done right and at that very instance. He tells me everyday many times that he loves me and is defenetly my little cuddle bug. We sat and read at least 6 books last night. It is amazing t hat being a three year old he would sit and listen to every word. I guess I dont have to worry about him having ad/hd.

Everything is ok today. I am having a flair up with my fibromalgyia. It really hurts but i try to keep myself going. Sometimes that is easier said than done. I am fighting depression today but I am getting through the day. i didnt get out of bed today until about 11:00. The kids got up and I told them to get cereal and watch cartoons. I just laid undr my warm covers. I didnt want to get up. The kids wre good. My bedroom is right next to the living room so I could hear every word. I felt like a bad mother but i just had no motivation to get out of bed today. I am going to try to take the dogs out for a walk later this evening. I am hoping that will help my depression some.

My husband brought home a black lab puppy the other day. She was free and Emily bugged for her. I thought thsi was insane because i just found a home for two of my dogs due to lack of money. Although our money situation has improved drastically, I didnt want to bring another dog home. My daughter loves her and i just dont have the heart to take her from her. I have been making her take care of her and take responsibility for her care. I take care of her most of the time. She is adorable but alot more work than I had wanted. I told my husband and all my kids not to bring home any other animal. I just dont have the time right now for them. I will take some pictures of my babies as soon as I get the time. I have three dogs and two cats. One cat just wondered up our driveway five years ago and has never left. The other one is our indoor baby.

I hope everyone is doing well. Stay safe everyone.