I couldn't sleep so I decided to write an entry in my journal. I cleaned out the dirty trailer next door. They left trash and food sit. It was horrible. I did however pack up some of the woman's clothes and the kid's clothes. This man only took his stuff not theirs. Unbelievable!! Shows how much he cares about his family!! Anyway, I put their clothes in some garbage bags and dropped them off at a mutual friend's house. I thought maybe the kids and wife would need something to wear. All th kids toys were left behind it was terrible. I have been told that they are living in the woods without a tent with a tarp for shelter. I cant believe this!! I really wish if they thought living in that trailer was that bad that they would have found another place to go with the kids. Enough about them anyway.
I stood outside at my house and yard today. I saw my pretty flowers I worked so hard to plant. I also looked at my hanging pots that I took so much time to make myself. They looked beautiful. I looked at my deck that we just had built. Why should I give this all up? I am going to try to make a go of it here. If i cant then I will leave it behind. I only have 9 months until it is all mine. I will give it a try.
I called a nursing home today in town. I am going to be doing volunteer work next week for a few hours. I am really nervous about being around people but I think this might be good for me. I know I will still have my bad days but maybe I can turn the bad days into less and less of occurrences. I don't know but I will defenetly try my best. I am going to try to make myself go to church on Sunday. I like going to church but i always feel so overwhelmed by all the people. But once again I am going to try. Maybe I will meet a friend or two. My 10 year old daughter is going to go to church and volunteer with me as well. We will do it as a team. : )
I know I have said this many times but I am going to say it again anyway. Thank you all for being there for me. I value all of your friendships and hope to get to know everyone better. I hope everyone has a safe and happy weekend. God Bless.