Saturday, June 7, 2008

hopefully better days will come

 

I couldn't sleep so I decided to write an entry in my journal. I cleaned out the dirty trailer next door. They left trash and food sit. It was horrible. I did however pack up some of the woman's clothes and the kid's clothes. This man only took his stuff not theirs. Unbelievable!! Shows how much he cares about his family!! Anyway, I put their clothes in some garbage bags and dropped them off at a mutual friend's house. I thought maybe the kids and wife would need something to wear. All th kids toys were left behind it was terrible. I have been told that they are living in the woods without a tent with a tarp for shelter. I cant believe this!! I really wish if they thought living in that trailer was that bad that they would have found another place to go with the kids. Enough about them anyway.

I stood outside at my house and yard today. I saw my pretty flowers I worked so hard to plant. I also looked at my hanging  pots that I took so much time to make myself. They looked beautiful. I looked at my deck that we just had built. Why should I give this all up? I am going to try to make a go of it here. If i cant then I will leave it behind. I only have 9 months until it is all mine. I will give it a try.

I called a nursing home today in town. I am going to be doing volunteer work next week for a few hours. I am really nervous about being around people but I think this might be good for me. I know I will still have my bad days but maybe I can turn the bad days into less and less of occurrences. I don't know but I will defenetly try my best. I am going to try to make myself go to church on Sunday. I like going to church but i always feel so overwhelmed by all the people. But once again I am going to try. Maybe I will meet a friend or two. My 10 year old daughter is going to go to church and volunteer with me as well. We will do it as a team. : )

 

I know I have said this many times but I am going to say it again anyway. Thank you all for being there for me. I value all of your friendships and hope to get to know everyone better. I hope everyone has a safe and happy weekend. God Bless.

 

13 comments:

pamal3 said...

Morning Christine. Well done. That's the spirit. I am smiling away as I type after reading this entry. You are definately doing the right thing. Keep me posted please. Love Pamxx

lv2trnscrb said...

I knew you would make the best decision for yourself; I think it is a wise one; I think it is great that you are going to do volunteer work (you'll do great, at nursing homes, the people love visitors) and do go to church tomorrow.  if you need to, sit in the back, last row, if you feel overwhelmed by all the people, but it is good to have a place to worship and learn about God and to meet others!

betty

howiseeit101 said...

Volunteer work makes you happy...you'll see.  I do it and I come home feeling full and content for the work I've done and the appreciation I get.  -Karen

bojgill4375 said...

Only 9 more months... when you get older that seems like a day. lol When you feel bad Christine take the dogs for a 10 minute walk and water and look at your flowers. Flower seed don't cost that much. Marigolds grow good... and when they die you have their seed to scatter to make more.  You can even save the little seeds for next year. When you volunteer at the nursing home you are going to see how blessed you are. It takes a caring person to work in a nursing home. Another rewarding job is going through the state and doing house work for the elderly 3 times a week and they pay you, have you thought of that. A lot of times they want someone to talk to.  Just an idea. Hugs, Janie

rdautumnsage said...

I knew given time you would look at it logically. I've always made it a point to NOT worry about what every one else thinks and try to focus on how I saw myself. You have so much going for you, all you need to do is believe in yourself. Your a better parents than the dad and mother who took their kids out of a home to live in the woods. By staying there your kids have a home, safety, love and family. Those things are priceless in todays world and your the one providing them. (Hugs) Indigo

jckfrstross said...

one day at a time:) and never give up!

Deb

kirkbyj05 said...

I am so happpy to read you have decided to stay.  YOu have made the right decision.  As for volunteering?  I know you will get more out of that act than the person you will be helping.  
God bless you and good luck on the day.   You will wonder why you let your knees wibble wobble when you reach the end of the day feeling tired but happy.   Lol!

Hugs
Jeanie xx

bhbner2him said...

All the best to you with your home and the volunteer work.  Church is always a good place to start.  ;o)   -  Barbara

ceilisundancer said...

Ah, you and your daughter together, that could work nicely.

Shame about that man, and what he is putting his girlfriend and their kids through.  I still wonder if he's in some sort of legal trouble and running away from the law....... but, you can only do what you can do.  You helped them when God put you in a position to help them.

One day at a time -- stay hopeful!

luvrte66 said...

Hang in there, Christine. You're gonna be okay. I loved it that you looked around at your flowers and what you've done around the house, and were able to get so much enjoyment from your accomplishments.

Sending you a big hug,

Beth

dbdacoba said...

Good for you Christine.  You don't need to be intimidated by people.  Smile at them.  That's the best way to start.  And smile when you get to church.  You are going to do just fine.

We're with you.                         DB

csandhollow said...

Good.

pprrrr39 said...

Sorry to hear about the fact that you had to clean up after the people living in the trailer..... seems so sad that the mother had to up and go with the kids like that.

I am glad that you are going to do voluntary work, sounds like a great idea and also good for you too

Take care
hugs Jayne