I know that things just arent going well for me. Sometimes I feel as if the Lord has turned his back on me but I know deep inside that this isnt the case. I know he is with me. I am just praying that he will give me the strength to get through this. I just wish I could get my physical health better so that I can think more clearly. I have alot of people and animals relying on me to make the right decision. That is ALOT on my shoulders. The atavan really isnt working for me so I am going to try other alternatives that doesnt include medications to calm myself down. I am going to try to go for a walk today with the dogs and just look at the nature around me. There is a preserve right down the street that I could go for quietness and deep thought. Maybe I wll go there this weekend and read or write. The last couple of days have been horrible. I am hoping that I can get these physical symptoms of stress under control. It is unbelievable what stress has done to my body. I had no clue that it could make you feel this way. I thought back in time and thougth about all the tough times that I have somehow gotten through. Part of me knows that I will get through this as well. It will take me some time but I will prevail. Thank you to all who have been there for my in your prayers and your comments. I know I say thank you alot but I can never say enough how much I appreciate everyone. I just hope we can all get through the crisis of the gas and food prices in one piece. Prayers are with everyone.
God bless the troops. Keep them safe.
Here is something that was sent to me that I wanted to share.:
Delay is not rejection
Although Jesus loved Martha, Mary, and Lazarus, he stayed where he was for the next two days and did not go to them. Finally, after two days, he said to his disciples, "Let's go to Judea again."
God often delays His response out of love, as He works all things together for good.
Waiting with hope
Mary and Martha had sent their friendJesus a message about the critical condition of their brother, Lazarus, and their urgent need for his help: "Lord, the one you love is very sick" (John 11:3). But instead of rushing off to Bethany, Jesus stayed where he was for two days before responding to Mary and Martha's plea. When he did arrive, he raised Lazarus from the dead in a magnificent display of his power.
Just as Mary and Martha struggled when Jesus answered their prayers for Lazarus in a time and way different from what they had expected, we get frustrated when the Lord delays in coming to us and answering our prayers.
As it did for the grieving sisters, two days (or two months or two years) of waiting can seem like an eternity to us. But in the midst of the "delay," God is not inactive. He is teaching us patience, perseverance, and faith and is planning to glorify himself in our circumstances. While we are waiting, he wants to cleanse our hearts and refocus us on Jesus. The Spirit always knows what will glorify God, and we can trust him when we're in the waiting room.