I went to the councilor today. I talked out what happened to me. I cried. I feel so betrayed. I guess it is something that will take awhile to get over. I hope that the woman will realize that her husband is abusive and leave him for a better life. I tried my best to help. I just pray that the children will be safe. Nothing really new has happened today. I felt a bit better after talking to the councilor but I still have alot of hurt felings and depression. I am hoping that someday i will feel normal and enjoy life more. She suggested me volunteering at a nursing home because she can tell I like to help people. I do like helping people. I never thought about it but I think maybe I should put that to good use. Maybe I can find a career where I can help people and make money doing it. I hope everyone in J-land is safe and healthy. Thank you very much for the caring person award. That put a smile on my face. Thank you all for being there for me. You all mean alot to me. I am going to lay down for awhile.