Friday, June 6, 2008

moving away

I think that I have had enough now. I had gotten a phone call first thing this morning with people saying they are talking about me again. Why do people have to call me and get me upset first thing in the morning? I feel used and hurt and they have to call and tell me again. I have been crying once again. It is not like me to cry so much so i think i have finally have had it. I am going to find homes for my animals, pack up everything that I can get in the car and get the children and leave. I have struggled long enough here and this is just icning on the cake. I will have to live in a shelter for awhile but i will bounce back. I think maybe my mental status might be better somewhere else. I think this might be the right thing to do or maybe I am just thinking irrationally again. I don't know. Thank you all for being there for me. This has been really hard.

 

10 comments:

pamal3 said...

Christine, try and hold off until tomorrow. You have had a really bad day and tomorrow could turn around for you. If you keep on running, then the problems will never be resolved. It Is only when you stand up and be counted that things will change. I really hope you will start to get back on track. This must be awful for you. You can mail me anytime. Try to re-read all the comments that were left and really take It on board. People are here for you. Love Pam xx

buggieboo1 said...

I am sorry people are doing this to you!
I don't have many friends in town, because even at 40 some can still be petty like in high school! I hate the phone I let the machine pick up! and once school lets out I am having the main line shut off! I have my cell and ONLY my true friends have that number! ignore the calls let the machine pick up!
I am sorry you are having a rough time.

Sharon

lsfp1960 said...

Hi there,I came over from another journal.  Before you pack up and move...ask the phone company to give you an unlisted number or like the others said, let your machine pick up.  Don't give away your pets and uproot your family over what other people are saying.  You're stronger than that.  Hold your head high & go on with your life.  My motto has always been "I will let no other person ruin my day!"  You can do it !   Today, I hope you'll take a shower, put some make up on, a little squirt of perfume & do something fun.  Even if you go somewhere and look at the flowers and the rest of God's creation in your area.  Just take it one day at a time.  Show those people they have no control over your life.  Please for the sake of your children....Linda in Washington state  (I've been where you are, so I know of what I speak)  

getbackjude8 said...

Just caught your blog as I was entering out of one of my own. I don't know more then what I just read. It sounds like you are DWK? Anyway I could relate so much to what you said, Been there done that. I don't know who is calling you and why people would say things about you. The person calling you telling you this I would hold suspect to wanting to hurt you. Could I also add when I get in these crying spells now, I am usually running a tempurature. I had to go live in a shelter when I left my husband for abuse. It was the best thing I ever did for myself. Not just to get away from a life threat, but when you getting beaten down enough be it physical or emotional, it does effect you. The way you project yourself to be. You deserve to be happy. No matter who says what, you are special. Your life, your experiences, your fingerprints and DNA are unique. Surround yourself with people who lift you up and do not allow anyone who does not add to you near you. I pray for you to be encouraged. A new beginning can start right where you are!
Last thought, is any gossip ever going to take away from you who you really are? Or is this being done to purposely get you stirred up? The people who are the closest can push these buttons anytime they want, how you react to them is up to you...My best-Judith

penguine4050 said...

People say mean things all the time but are they really worth it.  Your children and family should be the only people you care about and listen to what they say.  Give up everything for people who are trying to hurt you - hell no let it go get your number changed and try to find something you enjoy and have fun.  If you need an online friend I am hear for you.  Been through some bad times myself and I did some deep thinking and just was able to pull through it with a little help from my family.  Please rethink your thoughts and I am hear if you want to talk or just stop by my journal.

rdautumnsage said...

I seem to be parroting Pam a lot today...Running won't change how you feel about yourself right now. The only way these people are able to affect your thinking is by you allowing what they say hurt. It's not something you would do to someone else, so why allow someone to do it to you? As for your actions, yes...they are a little on the side of irrational at the moment. Your kids and pets are your main priority, why should they be uprooted because of someone elses cruelty hon. Give it a few days at least before you make any major decisions please...(Hugs) Indigo

csandhollow said...

If you run it confirms what they think. Don't run and hide. Hold your head up proud like the good woman you are.

lv2trnscrb said...

I think a fresh start somewhere might be good for you, Christine; I know you will make the best decision for you and your family

betty

shrbrisc said...

Honey I understand and if you think moving will help by all means do what is best for you and yours
hugs
Sherry

bojgill4375 said...

#1  WHO is calling you and telling you that people are talking about you?? I will keep you in my prayers. I really don't know what to say at this time. Friends don't call you early in the morning and tell you people are talking about you. Email me if you wish. Hugs, Janie