I think that I have had enough now. I had gotten a phone call first thing this morning with people saying they are talking about me again. Why do people have to call me and get me upset first thing in the morning? I feel used and hurt and they have to call and tell me again. I have been crying once again. It is not like me to cry so much so i think i have finally have had it. I am going to find homes for my animals, pack up everything that I can get in the car and get the children and leave. I have struggled long enough here and this is just icning on the cake. I will have to live in a shelter for awhile but i will bounce back. I think maybe my mental status might be better somewhere else. I think this might be the right thing to do or maybe I am just thinking irrationally again. I don't know. Thank you all for being there for me. This has been really hard.