This is unbelievable I know but those people who just left after i had tried to help me have been talking all over town. They are calling me things that arent very nice. Things that I really dont even want to write in my journal. People are believing them. I had just made a friend in the last couple of days. She refuses to talk to me anymore because of the things that were said. I didnt do anything to these people!! All I did was try to help them!! This man is so controlling that people are actually intimidated by him. This town is like that. It is a small town and noone relaly knows me all too well. Now I will not show my face into town again. I have been crying for the past two hours. I just feel like a fool. I sat in the bathtub earlier and wondered if I even wanted to keep going anymore. I decided to get online after my bath for awhile and you wont believe what happened. I had thoughts of just quitting. I am so tired. Then an e-mail came to me from my cousin who lives in Texas. I have not talked to her or heard from her in a couole of years. She wanted to share a poem with me that my grandma had written a few months ago. My grandmother had passed away a little while ago.